I feel like all I do is give.
Give my attention, my care, my time, my thoughts, my worries.
I’m always the one to ask how everyone is doing. I’m always the one asking to make plans, and asking if anyone needs help. I’m always the shoulder for people to cry on, always the listening ear.
And it’s not even that, because yeah it’s kinda a petty thing to be upset about. Its just, I feel like I’m not enough for most people. Hell, even my ex said I wasn’t enough and that he never stopped loving this girl named Audrey. Do you know how it feels to know that instead of trying to get over you, they’re trying to get over someone else? It hurts, it fucking hurts. And he still says he wants to be friends. Well, what kind of friend doesn’t even think to talk to you first. In fact, most of my friends don’t talk to me unless I start talking to them, and even then conversations are shallow and short no matter how hard I try. I’m so done trying, I can’t keep making an effort to be a friend if no one is returning the favor.